Fear of what won't get done.

      The fear I will take on here is the fear of what won’t get done. There seems to be a setting myself up for failure scenario here and has caused a lot of consequences and will continue to do so if not addressed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear what I won’t get done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect a projection of what won’t get done to fear its self.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being confronted and or scolded for what won’t get done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear consequences of what has not been done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto my past learned fear of consequences towards what has not been done that leads to fear of what won’t get done.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge up an emotional experience of fear and allow it to direct me in creating the consequences of inaction that I fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in an emotional experience of fear when seeing what I’m not doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue on in my mind and whatever I’m doing when I see I’m not moving responsibly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in an emotional experience of fear while looking at several things that I have not taken responsibility for.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let things pile up in the first place that leads to the participation of fear and anxiety.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not be self honest and not fully realize all the reasons for abdicating my responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to indulge in my own self interested experience that leads to fear of what won’t get done in the first place.

When and as I see myself participating in fear projecting what won’t get done I stop and I breathe. I realize participating in such fear is just a diversion tactic to keep myself from moving responsibly.

I commit myself to stop the projections and fear of what won’t get done and consider how to move responsibly in the moment and move.

When and as I see myself participating in fear of consequences of won’t or has not yet been done I stop and breathe and bring myself back here in and as the physical. I realize this fear is just a learned attempt to get people to back off from lashing out at me that can lead to both neglect and abusive action.

I commit myself to stop participation with fear of consequences and look practically and self honestly at how I create the consequences in the first place.

When and as is see myself getting lost in my own mind ignoring self responsible action; I stop what I’m doing, breathe and check to make sure nothing is moving inside me and consider what is best for all. I realize this kind of abdication as an addiction to my own self interested experience and if I don’t responsibly stop I will remain a slave to that self interest and of the mind.

I commit myself to break myself of the addiction to abdicating responsibility to the mind and my own self interested experience and also I commit myself to further investigation of why and how I abdicate responsibility for the sake of my own experience, apply self forgiveness and walk the correction.

When and as I see myself looking at multiple tasks I stop and I breathe and consider what I can do in the moment. I realize looking at multiple tasks at once can seem like too much and in looking at tasks all at once in my mind is useless.

I commit myself to move self responsibly in real time in the physical and train myself to write out a schedule every day.

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Fear of wasting time

 

     I find it somewhat confusing to take on my fears because they seem so tangled together like it’s really just one big fear. It seems like anything that is tangled you just have to go at it and you get better at it as you go along. So where to start?

Fear of wasting time and effort is a waste of time and effort so let’s start with this one little hair in the tangle.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear making an effort and not getting anywhere.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect wasted effort to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to waste time considering on whether or not to take a certain step to complete a task so I don’t have to do so much work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to charge the idea of extra work with a negative value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to find a distraction in self interest, when faced with my indecision towards whether or not a part of a task is a waste of time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not fully realize that going off into my mind and letting it run for me is always a waste of time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in an emotional experience of anxiety/fear while thinking I could be making better use of my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not make a simple consideration in self honesty on how to move responsibly in the moment just because it’s possible I may be wasting time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I need to be some kind of prioritizing machine that has to be able to see all the possible variables, to calculate whether or not I am being effective, only to get frustrated and give up on myself and move onto some distraction.

When and as I see myself participating in an emotional experience of fear towards wasted effort and not moving responsibly I stop and breathe and be self honest about the fact I am distracting myself, I realize this fear as a self created obstacle that serves to keep me from actually moving responsibly.

I commit myself to stop participation with fear of wasted effort and to move myself for the best results I can manage.

When and as I see myself considering whether or not to take on a certain part of a task so I don’t have to do so much work, I stop and I breathe. I realize that in considering how to avoid doing more work I will continue to sabotage myself from learning and training myself to direct myself responsibly.

I commit myself to stop considering how to avoid doing ‘extra’ work and start turning lack of movement into responsible self direction.

When and as I see myself faced with part of a task that just might be a waste of time I stop and I breathe and direct myself to move responsibly before I wonder off in my mind and onto something else. I realize this is just a diversion tactic to prevent becoming self responsible. I also realize in this that mind in separation of myself is often considering something it would rather be doing which almost always has something to do with music lately.

I commit myself to move self honestly when considering how to go about a task and move myself responsibly in prevention of wandering off and I commit myself to investigate anything I would rather be doing in self interest starting with music and how I define myself with it.

When and as I see myself participating in an emotional experience of fear/anxiety towards the idea I may not be making the absolute best use of my time, I stop and breathe. I realize that this fear/anxiety will hinder me from accumulating self direction in consideration of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop participating in experience of fear and anxiety toward not making the absolute best choice in a moment and practice/train myself to self direct in consideration of what is best for all.

 

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